PETRI.CHARD

It’s been a while. I’m existing in a limbo state of figuring out what’s next. Every time I feel like I’m about to get my head above water...

This is a somber, yet cathartic way to start the year. My values haven't changed. The grief of letting love go is all too familiar. As I...

I think we have this idea of what love is. Is it kindness? Is it understanding? Is it passion? Is it undefined? Do we need definitions? Do we need more words to feel we’re undeserving? Or reassuring, prideful, scare of admitting… this ego we harbor is… impermanent. For me… the crux is expectation. The idea that what we lack is what we seek. The white knight will appear and believe we warrant more. A false perception, reliant on a knight, that is white, that has only sought wh

I am grateful. I am elusive. I am tenacious. I am magnetic. I am ethereal. I am outrageous. I am unabashful. I am torpid. I am trapped in...

There are no eyes watching. There is no judge, jury, witness. There’s just you. What do you do? The way I reflect on life leaves me with...

I have not written in a while. It’s because I haven’t been happy with myself. Taking a moment to reflect on who I’ve become and how it’s...

These past few months were a lot of emotions. Mostly positive, productive, and enlightening. I haven't been in a super sexy mood since...

I keep hoping I've hit rock bottom and there's nothing left to lose. Turns out, there's a whole layer of trauma beneath the surface. I...

Tonight was a wonderful night, being surrounded by Burning Man campmates. It's comforting to be in a safe space and just lose yourself a...

Recently, I've been showing a more sincere part of myself with others. Instead of molding my responses to fit their desired interaction,...

There's a deep, unsettling feeling of melancholy in my soul. I thought I moved beyond survival instincts, that I was in a position where...

This song perfectly encapsulated how my September went. Back To Being Friends - Lauren Spencer Smith The need to feel productive. After...

I Don't Know What To Feel A long rant about how I've been doing. It's been a while since I've had the emotional energy to blog. Leading...

I feel better. I feel content. I also just want to be alone. I'm not ready.. and that's okay. I realized that I can allow myself to feel...

It closed without much closure. I feel like hiding away and shutting off for a bit, but I can't. Responsibilities, traveling,...

Dancing the night away, meeting new people, not caring about how ridiculous I looked while having fun... I paused, saw myself surrounded...

Another ramble ramble, she's drunk. 🥴 Oofta, what a night... at the same place, eating the same pizza. Got to see my friend dj, what an...

A long, droning ramble. Enjoy at your own risk. What I'm Listening To - Something Stupid | Nancy & Frank Sinatra Isn't it strange how...

I skipped writing yesterday and spend the evening sleeping. Going out for Sunday Funday and then working on Monday was a slight mistake,...

Shorter post today. It's a lazy Sunday for sure, woke up with a slight hangover and attempted to do all the things I put off during the...